(useless. fuck.) Not anymore.

i feel so mother fucking useless right now. FUCKFUCKFUCK MY FUCKING LIFE. z. No one understands, not anymore. 'cause to the one who really did understand, i'm shit. and that person changed.

i wish i had the courage to just slit my wrist and die. i cried at home. tears drown my eyes during school and while walking back. i just hope this day wouldn't get any worse. and i mother fucking hope no one asks about shooting. AND YOU'D BETTER NOT.

Fuckfuckfuckfuck. i don't wanna live.

Wow, this post make me sin like hell. So anyway, i just came back from BS with Alicia! :) Totally encouraged. I still have a life. So what if kenot enter shooting. I'm gonna carry on. Can't wait for tmr's cgm. :) Get to see more of W466 which i didn't :P And spencer's coming too, yipeee. (L)